Falling for your bestfriend? Okay or a MAJOR No No?

Okay..here's the topic today..

Falling In Love with your BESTFRIEND???

Is it okay or a MAJOR No No??

I'm just asking for your opinion tho. This has nothing to do with me or anybody. Well..there's a little bit of me [KIDDING!] but seriously..I just want your opinion. Okay, here's a friend of mine, who got this friend, who knew this other friend, who knew this other other friend...owh what hell?! Straight to the point!! Okay..okay.. Lets just say, this person knew this guy for like 5 years..they met since they were 8th grade. And they became close friends until 12th grade. Being classmates together for 5 years and she developed feelings for him. She never told him about her feelings towards him until they both were in the 10th grade. Guess what? What a MAJOR BLOODY REJECTION!! Feel sorry for her tho. But the amazing part is, they're still friends tho. More closer than ever. She sat next to him in class when they were in 11th grade. That make her happy. And yes, her feelings for him never fade away. As much as it hurts her seeing him liking someone else, but she never gave up on loving him. Talking about a ONE-SIDED LOVE. Major heartbroken for her. When they graduated, they both took pictures together..what a happy moment for her as well for him. Months have passed after the graduation, yet she still have feelings for him. What did she do? She waited and waited and waited..sad, init? How do I know this story? It had occured to a friend of mine. Owh well, since you finished reading it, what's your opinion?

dating your Ex's BFF..right or wrong?

Hey..umm..is dating your ex's bff right or wrong? I mean, we're not together anymore right..so, dating her/his bff is okay right? I mean what if, when you're with your ex, his/her bff likes you too and she/he's afraid to tell you that he/she likes coz he/she doesn't want to ruin your relationship. Wow, a true friend indeed. And when you broke up, his/her bff knows and he/she wants to be with you. Its a hard decision to make. Think wisely..is it right or wrong for you to date your ex's bff? Lol, I don't have the answer to this but this question suddenly popped in my head. Sorry, there's a lot happened in my life now. I'll be going to matriculation, and yes, I did told vans bout it.. and now we're both are sad. Good thing inside the campus, they sell reload there. Dammit, I'm sad now..feel like I'm about to breakdown and cry. I'm trying to hold back my tears. Ugh..life must goes on.. But one thing for sure, I will never stop loving you. Never ever! Remember us, forever and always.

Special Thanks to Hollyrottiers [hope you read this :D]

I just want to say thanks to "Hollyrottiers" for following my blog. Hey if you read this, talk to me sometime xD. I would love to know what music are you into or maybe we like the same music? Teehee! Thanks again!

wahhhh..done...13 days to go..

Before I start my yadayada on what's going on today..I just want to say..

CONGRATULATIONS TO ST.MICHAEL SCHOOL FOR CREATING ANOTHER MALAYSIAN RECORD!!

Haha..yay to my former school! OKay..okay..nuff said. Today was sick! Been out for the whole day and I didn't even get to talk to Vans. Sheesh..being busy, I mean very busy with college errands. Buying that, buying this. So much things to buy. Gah! Going broke here! LOL! But at last it was worth tho, I've bought everything in my checklist. Man, that matriculation rules are so eaffin strict! No wearing T's?! Like, what am I going to wear then? Ugh! Dammit, I need help here. I was wondering, whos' going to be my roommates? Hmm.. Hope tidak kena yg drama queen punya or yg pretend friendship punya. Ugh..I can't live with those kind of people. And ooh ooh, people who likes to stereotyped other people..don't dare to label me. I am for who I am. Nothing you can do to change it! Lol..mind that. I'm friggin tired tho, but i'm going to bed later. So, teehee!

Susan Boyle [Amazingly Awesome Singer!!]

Okay..okay..I know this is old news but I'm so busy that I don't even have the time to listen to this amazing person singing. Yeah, I heard about her on the radio and tv. Her name is Susan Boyle and she's 47. When i watched this vid, Simon asks her what she wants to do. Then she replied that she wants to be a professional singer. And THEN there's this girl, laughed at her!! What a meanie! They were all like shocked when they heard she said that. When she started to sing, she moved the crowd and they were all like standing and cheering for her. Believe me, Simon was impressed too. She was an amazingly awesome singer.

Here's the link if you want to the see the video. [Be AMAZED!!]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyk

the decision is made.. 15 days to go..

I've made my decision to pursue my studies at Matriculation, Labuan. My last day I will stay home is on the 8th May 2009 coz i'll be going to Labuan on the following day. 15 days to go. How am I going to tell Vans bout it? Argh..this thing is making go gaga and sad. Ugh! Hey, its only a year right? Time pass by so fast and we wouldn't even realize it. I hope. I also hope that I get room mates yg satu kepala punya, hehe. Omigosh, this song that I'm listening now while i'm typing this post is so amazing. If you're into metalcore song, I'm now listening to "Diamonds Aren't Forever" by Bring Me The Horizon. *BEWARE* This song is not for the faint-hearted, its only for metalcore/deathcore lover. My music taste has really changed alot. Seriously, even my mum and brother were shocked seeing me listening to that kind of music. I don't care tho. It's good listening to it when you're feeling stressed out. Haha, my sister, Joanne, hates my music tho. She would go like, "Off bah tu, bikin stressed lagu ko tu! Sheesh..!!" Owh well..you won't be listening to it after 8th May. At least, metal is better than listening to some rap. Ugh, rap is crap. Ooohh..ooohh..now, i'm listening to Thy Art Is Murder..damn, head-bangin music. I'm home alone, so there's no one to tell me to turn my music off. Haha, I can't imagine what will my roommates say if they see me listening to this kind of music. Maybe they go like, "What music are you listening?! Ugh, you're such a weirdo! Fucking emo! Yikes!" Lol..well, roomies you'll have to live with it anyways. Hehe. Well, till then..Teehee!

I was just being paranoid bout us..

Mind what I said about yesterday...we talked today on msn and on the phone!! Lol, again I was so nervous when talking to you. Aww..your voice was so cute when you tried to annoyed your sister. You said it was your annoying voice. But when you said my name, I was like "omigosh" that was sooooooooo cute and heavenly awesome. And now your voice is permanently stucked in my head. All I hear now, is your sweet voice saying my name and I smiled to myself for it. Which make me looked like a mad man. I wished I've recorded your voice. Can't wait to hear it when I call you next week. Teehee! Aww and today, I got an offline from Tori and she said she can't talk to me for 3 days and she told me not to worry about her. I hope nothing bad is happening to her coz I can feel something uncomfortable is going on. Oh My Gosh, I think I'm worried bout her. Oh no! Oh no! Omigosh.. C'Mon 3 days..hurry up, I seriously need to talk to her. Gosh..this is frustrating.

in my depressed mood.. :[

Ugh...i feel like I want to punch the damn mirror!! I don't know what to do. We talked today..and something just came across my mind. Wanna know what it is? It's YOU and our relationship. I feel like its going to end soon. I don't know why but it just came across my mind. I love you so much and I can't let you go. I know you feel the same way towards me but i just..idk. It's making me sad just to think of it. I cried today coz of you. And tomorrow its 23 April. You told that the "thing" in your room..told you that you're gonna..umm. Gah, I can't say it! Its painful and it hurts me so much! Please, don't let it happen. I can't take another goodbye. My heart can't take another blow.
*cries alone in room*

Thanks for the taggie Abeline xD

FOUR NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU :
Jas
Jac
Sinta
Sintut

FOUR MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE :
10th July
2nd July
5th September
21st April

FOUR THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES :
Talking to friends on msn
Cooking
Laundry
Blogging

FOUR WAYS TO BE HAPPY :
Talk to someone you love the most
Pray and always think of God
Eat favourite food
Sleeping

FOUR PEOPLE YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST :
Family members that have passed away
My classmates when in primary school
My favourite dog [he's part of the family]
My ex

FOUR GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE :
I-Phone [its a must]
All expenses paid to Australia
Of course, cash xD
My own private jet

FOUR OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES :
Texting
Reading
Making Poems
Online chatting with you know who

FOUR PLACES OR COUNTRY YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION :
AUSTRALIA!! Melbourne and Brisbane! (priority!!)
New Zealand (The mountains and refreshing breeze)
Paris (City of Love)
UK (Heart their accents)

FOUR FAVOURITE DRINKS :
Coke
Iced Water
Isotonic Drinks
Vodka? yeah..vodka..yumm

FOUR THINGS ALWAYS FOUND IN YOUR BAG/HANDBAG :
My Laptop
Books
Hand Sanitizer
Clothes [sometimes]

FOUR FAVOURITE COLORS :
BLACK
Purple
Red
Green

TOP FOUR HANGOUTS :
My room [private!]
The Balcony (Where I can be alone to think and stare at the stars)
The Beach (good times..good times)
Kitchen!! (food!)

TOP FOUR U LOVE SO MUCH :
My Vans and Tori
My Parents
My God and Jesus
Friends

TOP FOUR "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU :
My Laptop (Take it away from me, you'll regret doing it)
My Cell (without it can't text or call people)
My relationship with Vans (my heart can't take another blow)
My Life (we only live once so why waste it?)

TOP FOUR WHO YOU WILL TAG
Anyone will do :D

I want us to be together forever and always

Today I realized that I love you more than anything. No doubt bout it now. You loved me like I loved you. When we talked today, you make my heart beats fast. You don't want me to leave, but its 3 month to go. College is coming soon. It seems that you're counting the days. It's making me sad tho. I hate to be apart from you. And I know you feel the same way. Oh my gosh! I love you so so much! I miss you heaps every single day. Why are we so far apart?! If I've been given a chance to go anywhere in this world..all expenses paid and right now, I would choose to go to your place..grab you and hold you tightly to me without want to let you go. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! [it's no joke]
Aww..enough me being luffy-duffy about you. Today I also talked to Tori. We're becoming closer and closer each day. Although we're both far apart but I feel like we're so close like we've known each other for such a long time. Idk..I want us to be just friends tho not more than that. So, imma control my feelings so I won't be to over with it. Ugh..confused feelings again! Deleting confused feelings..1%..25%..55%..67%..78%..85%..91%..100%!! Eeepp..ERROR! File cannot be deleted. Stupid hard disk!! Teehee! Owh well..
Omigosh! I can't decide where I want to study!! I'm still confused. Yeah, I got accepted to matriculation but I'm not fond in accounting. I hate accounts for goodness sake. I sucked at it. Seriously. I'm more into journalism, teaching, TESL, nursing, or any other medical fields. Just not accounts. But studying in matrix is good as they say and its nearer. Today, you also said to me, "Dammit, 3 months to go. I can't forget it. I can't forget you coz it's you!!" and I was like whoa?! Wow..i really don't want to leave you, you know. But I must. I must go in order to pursue my studies so I can meet you someday. Imma go take my shower then. Ttyl bloggies.

Teehee!

do you really love me? just wondering..

I'm so sorry if you read this tho. Nah, i'm sure you won't. At least I hope you won't. Sometimes..okay, sometimes..I feel like you don't love me. This long distance relationship is so hard to cope. But I never give up coz I love you so much. This relationship taught me a lot about trusting someone. Yes, I trust you a lot. But I don't know today, this question suddenly crossed my mind. Sorry, I know you're sad now coz your bff just died. I understand that. Ugh, forget it anyway! Its making me sad just to think bout it. Forget what I said. Its just my mood swings. Dammit! Apart from being depressed today, someone just made my day. Its a friend of mine, Tori. We're okay now. She's not mad at me anymore. She said to me today that her mum and me are the only people that she got. She also said that I'm a part of her family. Thank you so much. I love you as my friend. Or maybe more than just a friend? Lol..nah. Just a friend. Hehe. Imma head for bed now. Till then, xoxo.

Teehee!

gah T_T [well that ended well..kinda]

Well..that ended well..haha right..ended with a bloody headache and sores all over my body. Mum..where's my reload? Hehe, my mum promised to reload me coz I helped during the party. Like I thought, the party ended already but yesterday sambung lagi bah. Haha..lol, where did they get the beers?! Coz all I know that the beers at the party were out! Gone! Finished! Wow..magic. Teehee! The whole day yesterday..my cousins playing with our laptop, guitar hero and stuff. I sucked playing guitar hero. And today at last I can play well not perfect but at least I can play at medium mode. Alas! hehe..I can play Afterlife, This ain't a scene, time is running out and it hurts in medium mode!! Yay me! Imma play again to improve.

I WANNA TAKE THIS OPPORTUNITY TO SAY THANKS SO MUCH to...

ALL OF JOANNE'S FRIENDS AND HER GENK KARATZ FOR MAKING JOANNE'S SWEET 16 THE BESTEST GREATEST PARTY IN HER LIFE.

AUNTS, UNCLES AND COUSINS FOR JOINING US.

ABRAHAM WHO HELPED ME IN THE KITCHEN AND CARRYING SOME STUFF.

DJs..ANON..AUDREY..COLLIN..DATU..JOHNBOY..

MY DAD FOR THE WINES, BEERS AND THE TWO KEGS.

BOTH OF MY GRANDMA FOR THE SOKO AND YUMMY KUIH

THE CATERER [yummy dishes!]

THE WASTED GUY WHO USES THE WORST PICK UP LINES ON AUDREY. [Dude! you cracked me up!]

AGAIN..JEZREEL FOR HELPING US TO CLEAN [hope u read this..hehe]

AND SPECIAL THANKS TO MY MUM FOR THE SUPPORT. I KNOW, MUM, YOU'RE EXHAUSTED BUT I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND THANKS FOR EVERYTHING.

THANKS SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!!

I WILL LOVE YOU ALL AS LONG AS I LIVED.

FOREVER AND ALWAYS!!

Teehee!

what a partay!! woot woot!

Its 4.00 am here and i'm still awake!! Woop woop! My parents are sleeping, my bro with his gf and Joanne and Celine. Yeah, Celine sleep over at our house. Lol, its so late and i'm not sleepy.. wow, the party today was a BLAST!! I've been busy talking to Joanne's friend and I didn't realize whats happening to the surroundings. Owh yeah, before that, I just wanna express my gratitude to this people who helped during the party..

1. My parents

2. Our maid and her children

3. Celine [wiping the chairs]

4. Jezreel [helping us to cleaned after the party]

5. Aunts and Uncles

6. All of Joanne's friend for making this party a total success!!

At the party, I've prepared pudding and spagethi. I was like whoa..coz when I want to eat the spagethi, it finished!! Gone! That was fast.. also my pudding. Glad there's one cup left. Omigosh..i'm damn tired. Now, I can sleep in peace. Yay me.. what happened at the party just now? Let me tell you..

1. Dancing..disco..with heart-pumping music

2. Guitar Hero..

3. This is the funny part where there this guy who were trying to flirt with Audrey. It was very funny coz he uses the WORST PICK UP LINES i've never heard in my 17 years of life. Seriously..it was seriously..annoyingly..worst!! Idk if he's wasted[drunk] or not. It doesn't look like he's wasted but the way he spoke, it makes him looked like he's drunk. Like when he asked Audrey that if she got his phone number, Audrey was like "what?" I was like, dude, she doesn't even know you! Again, when Audrey wants to go home, the guy went to her place and wants to hug her. But KASIAN!! Kena REJECT!!! WAKAKAKAAKA!!

Lol..so, imma go now. I don't want to sleep yet. Imma go play guitar hero with Abraham..

Good Morning although there's no sun yet..lol, its 4.24 am!

Teehee!

the DAY is tomorrow!! Jeng..jeng xD

Okay..before I begin, I just wanna wish my sis..

HAPPY SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY!!

Sorry for ruining your day tho..hey, not only your day..mine too. Ugh, mind that. So, today was a total tiredness. Getting ready for the party tomorrow. By the way, I JUST FINISHED MAKING PUDDING!! YAY ME! So, to all the people coming to the party tomorrow, make sure you try it and be amazed. Teehee! What did I do today, aye?

1. Award Day. [I received one today xD]

2. Mum scolded me coz of my unawareness of the surroundings. [Believe me, it was scary]

3. Cleaned the road to our house [if you saw us, you will definately laugh at us]

4. Cleaned the drain [ewwww]

5. Watch the people set up the tent [weird dude kept looking at me..yikes!]

6. Laundry [hehe..sempat lagi bah]

7. Puddding! [Choc, Honey Dew, Mango, Blackcurrant, Strawberry and Durian]

Dammit, i'm so tired and yet I haven't go to bed. My eyes are wide open O.O

Teehee

haha day with me mates..

Lol..i just got back from school. Suprised? I'm not going for study just to settle some stuff with the teachers. It was funny tho. Me, Foon, Chol, Ain and Theresia go around the whole school building just to look for Cikgu Salmah. Padahal..sana Dewan Kebudayaan. Siang! So we terpaksa drive to go there and the teacher asked us to see Cikgu Felicia. We were so angry and yadayada coz she asked to go back to school and find Cikgu Bethy for the letter. Dammit..ugh! Again, we drove back to school and again to our frustration, Cikgu Bethy is no where to be seen. Arghhh! So, we just went to her table and look for the letter, sign it then go. Sheesh it was annoying. But all in all..i get to hangout with my friends. Aaahh..nostalgic moment..

Teehee!

Yay to Guitar Hero!

We just came back from Wisma Merdeka and guess what? My parents bought us a guitar which is also known as GUITAR HERO. We only bought one tho coz its kinda expensive. Well..kinda. It costs about Rm168. Me and Joanne are playing it now, following our turns. Hehe.. So, my day today was awful, sad and disturbed. What happened?
1. My first fight with Vans. Nearly broke up but we're okay now. Its my fault tho.
2. Tori accused me of doing something that I didn't do and now she hates me. I already talked to her but she wouldn't listen.
3. Vans asked me something which makes me feel disturbed.
4. I'm an asshole!
Gah..i don't know what to write. And I'm not going to give up my relationship with Vans. And imma go play guitar hero now. TTYl!

Teehee!

It's your decision then..

Thanks to someone on msn..you just made my day..you just made my bloody day..you just have to ruin my bloody day..I thank you for that. Now, i'm beginning to hate you.. Its your decision then. You told me today that you're gonna delete me..Its your decision then, go ahead. I won't force you to do anything that you hate. Thanks tho..Nice to meet you. Thanks for the 5 month friendship. The 5 month you lied to me about you. Thank you for all that. I appreciate it our friendship. Thanks so much..

untitled is the best title :P

www.whoblocksyou.com
I know this webiste from a cousin of mine, thanks! This website tells you who blocks or deleted you on msn. I went to the website and owh jolly..I found out who blocked me in their msn. Becky..the stuck-up blondie that me and Don hate..yeah, she blocked me. And..well, i'm not suprised bout it..It's my ex, Eri. No wonder, I never see Eri on Msn for a month. Owh well, i don't care if you don't want to talk or you want to forget me. Feel free tho. Not hard feelings, i'm okay with it. The pain that you caused in me are healed by someone. At least, that person does not act all clingy to me. So, there..I loathe everything about you. We're done! Gosh, I feel free. I'm happy that I'm with Vans. *deleting painful memories* Loading..10%..25%..50%..75%..98%..100%..DELETING COMPLETE! Omigosh! I'm desperate..no credits..can't call Vans. Ugh..Dammit, I got a stomachache and idk whats causing it. Painful..ouch..

Teehee

omigosh..i love your laugh :D

Omigosh..I just love your laugh. Its so adorable. I'm addicted to it. I talked to vans today till my credits ran out. It was very funny coz we were laughing all the way. Vans said, "Oh my God" and I said "Oh my gosh". We talked for like 12 minutes and yes my credit balance is Rm0. Typical me. Imma buy again soon. But one problem tho, I'm out of cash. LOL! I'm going to ask from my mum soon. Hehe..i'm bad. Like Vans asked me what ringtone that I used when someone is calling me. I don't understand their accent tho..only a lil bit, so I was like, "pardon? sorry? I can't hear you" and keep repeating it for like 10 times. I listened to it very careful and then I heard what Vans said. It sounded like "reng-toun" instead or "ringtone"..well, thats australian accent for you and I'm in love with it. Owh well..imma go to bed.

Teehee!

glad thats over..phew!

Booyah! I just came back from the interview. I nailed it! Haha..kinda. The result of the interview will be out in 4 weeks time. If I get accepted then I'll be flying to Penang on the 1st of July! JULY! Omigosh! I'll be celebrating my birthday there..hehe. During the interview, I was the last and the longest one to be interviewed. My mum said, "it seems that you two have fun" and I was like, "yeah coz it was funny". That person asked me tons of question. Wanna know what she asked? Read below..
1. About my whole family.
2. Why do you choose nursing as a career?
3. How do you know this college?
4. Health issue
5. Who's our Prime Minister now?
and many many more. I answered it with knowledge that I have in me. I didn't even study for it. Like she asked my just now what is "add science" and I said to her that its a combination of physics, chemistry and biology. Then she looked at me with a grin then said, "so, you know a lil bit bout biology right? Let me asked you some question." I was like *gulp* dammit, I only learned the basic. Then she asked me bout kidney and lungs. Gah..thank goodness I can answered them. And of course, I stuttered. I'm sure she noticed the nervousness when I spoke. Owh well..at least I live through it. Lol. All the applications will be out this week tho. So many to choose from but I'm beginning to like this college..we'll see about it.

Teehee!

3 hours to college interview!! O.O

Omigosh! Omigosh! Omigish! 3 bloody hours to go..I still haven't figure out what to say..what should I say?! I'm going to do last minute revising about the college and about nursing. Hey guys..if I don't come back alive, please take care of my dog, reload my phone, visit my grave every week with black rose and take care of my laptop. What the?! What am I saying?! Gah..i'm stressed out. Help me..its just a college interview right? Just a bloody interview right? No need to worry? Of course I'm hella worrying bout it. Its my future that i'm deciding.
OMFG! My hands are starting to shake..right now..then, it will be my heart. Huhu T.T

12 hours till the interview..

Omg! 12 hours to go.. I'm so nervous..
After the interview, i'll be waiting for dad at San Francisco Coffee tho..till lunch time..
I called vans again today..talked to vans for about 10 minutes. There was lot of laugh in our convo and I still stutter when talking to vans. Also, my hands are shaking when holding my phone. It nearly fell tho. Guess what? It costs me about Rm10 for today's call. I know I'm crazy. I'm so happy to hear van's voice. It woo-ed me. And of course, I say "Oh My Gosh" many times again. Suprisingly, Vans likes to listen to it coz vans says its cute when I say it. Lol, i'm blushing. Its only the second week of April and I've spent about Rm50 on reloads. Haha right? Well, texting three people from US and calling a friend in Australia. Man, that costs a lot. Teehee! Owh well, imma go to bed early.

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

confused feelings...

Why do I have this feeling when we talked? I've been keeping this feeling towards you since last year and today, I told you about it. It turns out, you also felt the same way towards me. But we both are in a relationhsip. I didn't tell you about my feelings coz I know we won't be together. No, its not the age difference, 5 years different its not a problem to me as long you're heart is honest. Its just that..how can I explain this? I don't even know what to say. I'm still confused with my feelings. I'm in love with V but when I talked to you, its like the same way I felt for V. This is what happen when we get too close. You said it yourself. And soon, i'll be leaving you and V. You said you don't want me to go. Why? I want to know your real feelings towards me. I can't tell you mine coz I'm not sure. I guess this feeling towards you, bloomed each day. Imagine, for 4 months I kept this feeling. You cried when I told you that I'll be leaving soon. You asked me to delete you. I will not fucking do that! We're close and I want us to stay close. I feel like i'm going to cry. You also told me some stuff today that makes me really sad and broken. I guess..I really liked you and I will keep it in me. Doesn't matter we're not together, as long I get to talk to you..i'm happy.

College Interview tomorrow! Yikes O.O

Omg! Tomorrow is the interview!! Omg! Omg! Omg!
I'm so so so so so nervous!! I'm doing last minute research on nursing tho. Gah! I still can't get it. OMG! Someone please help me. Imma die! Eeeekkk.. and I haven't talk to vans today. Omigosh..I miss vans already. Dammit! So, any last words or advices for me? It could help me tho. Or give me support? Anything..It would be most appreciated. Matrix and SPA will also be out this week. One thing for sure, matriculation is not for me. Gosh.. my heart is beating fast and my hands will soon starting to shake. Trust me it will.. Owh well..

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

Red to Black! Ugh!

This is so not me...Look the pic below..my old hair..I miss it already.. Its all the interview thingy fault. Gah.. I don't do black hair.. *sniffs*

Me ol' hair..

The new do..ugh!

Jolly Holly Easter!!

Happy Easter everyone!!
Today we went to Stella Maris, bahasa mass and guess who's today's priest? Father Tony, the most amazing but yet funny priest ever! During his homily, he adviced us to be happy not sad. His saying was like this, "Time Easter ni kita semua mesti bergembira. Bukan sedih. Klau kamu sedih ini hari, ia merupakan dosa yang sangat BESAR (i was like whoa!) and kamu boleh aramai tii sehingga pentecost. Kamu tau bila tu pentecost? Bulan lima. Kaamatan la tu. Nah, berampai la kamu selama 50 hari ni." Then, all the crowd in the church were laughing hard. Seriously, it was funny. I was kinda sad today coz I didn't call vans like i'm supposed to. It's not that I forget, its just that I've been very busy with the preparing of Joanne's party, houseworks and other stuff. I still have another 72 hours till the interview. Dammit. I still haven't figured out what to say. There are still so much to do. Okay..i've been saying that since last week. But its true tho. Today also, I dyed my hair black coz the interview won't allowed any color other than black. So, my hair now is black. Rawr! I'll let you see in my next post. Ugh..i'm ugly, hehe. OKay..on to the next post bout my new hair :D

Once again,
Happy Easter to you all!
Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

what the bloody hell?!

OMFG! Just now, I was on msn. Couldn't resist the temptation, and vans was on. Vans said I didn't call. I was like..OMFG! I totally forgot coz I thought I was supposed to call tomorrow. I was sad and so as vans. So, I called vans just now. I was like, OMFG! Australian accent was the most beautiful accent ever! Believe me coz I was shaking there and here. I was freakin nervous and my heart is beating hella fast!! I say the word, "oh my gosh!" many times coz thats what I say when get so nervous. After ended the call..i was like jumping all over my room, punching the door and smiling like an insane lunatic. Ahhh..*dreams* I'm in love.. Gosh..i'm lame! Vans said my voice was adorable and emi said its cute when i say "Oh my gosh" everytime. Those two..LOL! Imma call again tomorrow. But first, reload! Hehe.. It costs me about RM6.00 tho for about 7 mins. Imma go buy it tonight. Dammit.. how can I stop my hands from shaking?! I need to punch the wall maybe? Yeah..i do that. BRB! ........
Done! And it still shaking..huhu..dahh.. mind it..

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

OMG! what should I say?!

Omg! What should I say?! I'm feeling hella nervous coz tomorrow its the first time I'll be calling Vans! My first international call to Australia!! I'm so nervous. OMFG! I'm afraid that I would stutter! What should I say?! Any ideas people? Should I say like, "Hey, how are you? What are you doing now? Are you happy that I called you?", gosh, thats lame. I need this call to be special. What am I worrying about? Its just a call right? A normal call to a friend, right? Right?! Sorry..i'm getting desperate here. Didn't talk to vans today coz i'm still busy with the housework and I may be busy till Joanne's birthday party. There are so much cleaning to do downstairs. Then the after-party cleaning. OMG! This month is a very busy month for me. And one more thing, the college interview is getting nearer. The worst part is, I don't know what to wear. It must be a proper attire tho. Ugh..i'm not use to wearing a proper attire. I usually wore anything that have to do with the color black. F.Y.I, i'm not emo or goth. Its just the color suits me. Don't judge me by the clothes I'm wearing. I hate it coz I got alot of people staring at me and start to talk bout me, calling me emo and stuff. Stop talking crap, would ya?! I hate stereotypes. I am me. Just me and no one else. I'm happy for who I am now. Nobody can change that. Got it? Good. *Sigh* It bugs me so much about calling vans tomorrow. I really don't know what to say and i'm serious. Does it sound like i'm fooling around?! Naw, maybe a little. *Gets serious* Okay..dammit! Any tips on calling your love ones for the first time? I don't give a flying duck what idea you're gonna tell me. I just want to know.
Puh-lease *puppy dog eyes*

Owh well.. Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

gah..Gah..GAH!!

Owh someone please..KILL me now! It was a freakin eaffin busy day today. Gosh, everyday is a busy day. Imma breakdown soon. Believe me. Well, our room is all set. Joanne is sleeping coz of tiredness. And I, didn't online on msn today. Been busy since morning. At 3.00pm we go to church at Stella Maris. Damn, it was so HOT! I was sweating all over. Ugh, smelly much. Didn't talk to my dear..gosh. I'm getting addicted to talking to vans. My hands and back hurts. I'm still freakin nervous about the interview. Still haven't figure out what to say. Three days to go. Omigosh! Omigosh! 72 hours to go! Its so near. My eyes are heavy.. Owh well, imma head for bed now. Night night! :D

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

met my sister in-law! well..kinda..Teehee!

Ignore the bloody title.. But really, I met Van's sister today. Her name is Emily. It was a funny convo between me, her and Kayle. Seriously..ignore the bloody title. She's friendly..just like Kayle. And my soon to be sister in-law! Hehe..I'm JOKING! Seriously. I haven't engaged to Vans yet. Owh my..nuff bout marriage. What the Hell am I talking about anyway?! Dammit, I feel high although I didn't take anything. My stomach hurts coz all I do is laugh today. Laugh..laugh and LAUGH! Its their fault..making me go haha. Plus, Vans makes me friggin happy today. Yeah, we fought again on who's more cuter. This time I won. Teehee! Also, today, Joanne was being hella hilarious today. Today, Kayle asked me if I can let him see Joanne's pic and of course I let him. Well, he saw Joanne's pic and he was like, " Wow, she's cute as! Your sis is hot! and Sexy!" Lol, i was laughing hard. Same goes to Emi and Vans. They both says the same. When I told Joanne of what Kayle says bout her, she went like " What?! Really?" Then, she began laughing like this, "hohohohohohohohohohohoho", damn, it was a long laugh..if you heard it, I assured you that it'll haunt you. Well, my mum was eavesdropping and she asked me, " Are you selling your sister's pics to a stranger?" I was like, "Me? I'm not that cruel. Besides, Kayle says Joanne is hot" and Joanne was still laughing like a mental. What a hilarious day. Damn, if they don't live so far apart from me, I would have invite them to Joanne's party. Then we could hangout together..me, Kayle, Emi and my Vans. But the important part is me with Vans. It would be great if we're together at the party. In my dreams! Like now, me and Joanne in our soon to be room, using our laptops..im-ing each other on msn although we're just one feet away. Haha? Lol..I'm bored and its 9.47 and I still haven't shower yet. No wonder something's smells..

Teehee xD

xoxo,

Jaceyy

what a boring day :[

Damn..what a BORING day. Today, I woke up with a new resolution, that is not using internet for a day. I realized that I'm truly addicted to ONLINE everyday. I didn't talk to Vans or Kayle today. Since I got nothing to do in the morning, I went to bed for a snooze. Turned on the air-con and dozed off. When I woke up, go downstairs and saw my laptop there..calling me to use it..and then I saw the wi-fi, also calling me to use it. What a TEMPTATION! I try to resist it but I can't. Too much pain in me..need to use the internet..BAMM! Here I am sitting in the living room using it. Dammit! I can't resist it. All day I thought about Vans, not talking to my dear makes me go yadayada and Eri suddenly came across my mind. When I listened to Halo, you came across my mind. I haven't delete the rest of your message tho coz when I read it, I feel calm and I smiled suddenly like a lunatic. I can't bring myself to delete your messages. I regret deleted your other 506 messages. Those words you said to me. Some of it healed the pain in me. It's been 3 weeks since we last talked. Argh! Why can't I forget you already?! It's really hard to move on, you know that?! I love you too much when we're together but I'm sure now your love is not the same anymore. I understand that. I got Vans in my life and you can have anybody you want. Right now, I just want you to fade away from my memory forever. Owh what the heck, mind what I said just now. So, the interview thing still bugs me. Really, seriously, I don't know what to say. Should I talk about me? Things that I like? Stuff that I hate? Hmm? I really don't know. Imma call Vans for advice and support on that day. Sheesh, i'm being annoying again.

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

I got the letter!

I just got the letter from my mum..
OMG! Its really next week..
In the letter it says..
"With reference to your application for the above-mention course, please come for an interview:"
Date: 14 April 2009/ Tuesday
Time: 9.00 a.m
Venue: Mabul Room,Marina Court Resort Condiminium. [Next to Promenade Hotel]
I'm freakin nervous..scared..nervous..I hope to get interviewed by a chinese and not a caucasian. My english is not that good and I stutter alot when speaking it.
*sigh*

OMFG! College interview next week!!!

OMG! I'm freakin out now. OMG! OMG!
My mum just called me like 5 mins ago and told me that the letter from College of Nursing in Penang just came. And they asked me to come to the interview next week!! On the 14th April if i'm not mistaken. I haven't see the letter tho but dammit, the interview is next week! But I can bring my mum along, yay me. So I wouldn't be so nervous. Imma practice speaking english with the mirror and my family. And do some research about nursing and about the college. Omg! I need confidence! I need Vans to be with me.
Gosh, imma wait for my parents to come home so I can read the letter.

You're cuter..No you..That's final!

Haha? Have you ever heard this quote? " When I'm at the park, I saw this couple and I was jealous of them. Why? Because they were fighting who loves who more." If I'm not mistaken, you can find the quote at photobucket. I'm feeling jealous too although I never saw any couple fighting bout that before. And at the same time, I also feel sad coz I can only do it virtually. Today, when I talked with Vans we were fighting who's more cuter. Our convo goes like this..
Vans: Cute.
Me: Aww..you're cuter.
Vans: No you are. Cutie.
Me: No, you're more cuter.
Vans: Never!
Me: Yes you are. More cuter :)
Vans: No. Why? You are.
Me: No, you.
Vans: No, you.
Me: Okay, we both are cute.
Vans: Yay!
I wished I can do it in the reality. Vans and I are just too far apart. 8 hours by plane. Miles away from each other. I'd give anything to go to Melbourne. Is it expensive to call someone in Australia? Hmm..Nah, I don't care. Yikes, I can still feel the person's hand holding my hand. I mean the person in my dream the other night. I can feel the touch. The soft loving touch. It sent chills down my spine tho. I can't forget it. I want to dream that person again. I hope the person is Vans. Damn! Owh well..

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

i wonder..who are you?

Last night, I had a bizzare dream. Seriously. It was so weird. In my dream, I was holding this person's hand from the beginning to the last part of the dream. I couldn't tell who is the person..i don't know if its a boy or girl. But the hand was soft and when it held my hand, it was full of love. No, it was not V or E. Its somebody else. I've been thinking bout the dream for the whole day. It seems real. Call me crazy but I can still feel the person's hand on my hand. It was so soft, touch of love and it stroked me. The touch is making me breathless. I wonder, who are you? Why are you invading my dream tho? Are you the one that i've been longing for? No. Please don't. I've got V and I don't want anyone else. But why last night? You suddenly came and hold my hand? We're in love with each other in my dream. Like I said, it was so bizarre, awkward and totally weird. But..its just a dream right? Dreams won't turn into reality. Right? Gosh, i'm getting desperate. I just want to know, who are you and why? Maybe its just me..but I want you to hold me again in my dream. I feel so calm when i'm in your arms. OMG! I think I want you! If I know who you were.. Owh well.. I'll just wait for another dream about you..

xoxo,

Jaceyy

Headache! Backache! Major tiredness

The PAIN that dwells in me is friggin killing me. Mum, can I now go to another vacation in Labuan? Mum from distance: Don't even think of going there. Bu..bu..but MUM! I freakin tired and I probably get infected by Joanne's red eyes. Coz she TOUCHED me! You know damn right its contagious by physical contact. Mum, puh-lease? *Puppy dog eyes* Mum from distance: NO! And that's final. No buts! No nada. Aww..mind that convo. Was just playing around. I'm so tired. My whole body are aching. I just want to get the work done, move to the room and sleep in peace for 3 days straight. Tonight, like we're gonna arrange all the stuff back into my room. I hope we can finish all tonight. I've been waiting for me to have a decent sleep. I sure could use that. Soon, the TV and the DVD player will be in my room. Gosh, I want a getaway to paradise where I can sleep in peace with no one bothering me or go yadayada on me when i'm resting or no one shouted at me like "Do your chores!!" Sheesh! Thats annoying. Owh F! My stomach friggin hurt! I'm laughing hard coz I'm watching "Why can't I be you" on mtv and its damn funny. Coz there's this tomboy girl who wants to be a girly-girl. Seriously, it was funny when she tried to pole-dancing. LOL. But still, my whole body are hurt. Can anybody be a sweetie and give me a massage? Please...? I'd give you a hug..or be your bff? Owh, forget it. Hehe..

Teehee!
Cheers for the tiredness. xD

xoxo,

Jaceyy

T.I.R.E.D!!

Somebody please! Seriously..I need a massage. My back is aching, I have a bloody headache and Joanne have red eyes and I may get infected by her. Don't believe me? My eyes are starting to feel little itchy and sore. I've been doing the bloody chores for like 2 days. Didn't help to paint the wall tho coz went to my friend's house to celebrate our spm result. Her mum asked us to come. Her mum's Rendang was very tasty. Yumm! Thanks auntie for cooking delicious food for us! Btw, thanks for the rendang, my mum loves it! Haish, my head is so heavy! I hope i'll be sick soon so I wouldn't wake up early and do the bloody chores. I'm so bad >:D but yet, i'm still confused. Today, at my friend's house, we talked about love and relationships. Typical topic, eh? Discussing the topic makes me think of someone. It's Eri. Why I can't get over it?! I mean, Vans came into my life and mended my heart that's been broken by Eri. Still, why I can't move on?! One of my friends, her boyfriend is from Singapore, and Eri is from Singapore. Damn, it hurts me so much. I'm not sure if I'm going there in August. Mum has already bought the tickets. Wouldn't waste it,right? Owh well..shit! My head hurts..huhu. Imma sleep early tonight tho. This morning, I woke up early and before going to church, I go online for a while. Talked with Kayle, and today he told me that Josie broke up with him coz she doesn't love him anymore. I was like, wtf?! He was damn sad..so, I told him to calm down and gave him a hug. Well, a virtual hug tho. He still love Josie tho. I told him to think of happy thoughts. Thats what Vans told me to do when I'm sad or mad. It helps. Gah..tired..tired..sleep..yeah..sleep..
ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..


Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

anybody need a maid?

Today was a very busy day..I mean very busy. I'm resting now. Gah! I'm bloody EXHAUSTED and I think imma suffer headache in one bloody hour. I can feel it. I've been cleaning the house the whole day. Not only me but the whole family was bloody busy. What did I do? Get all the stuff out from my room. The bed, books, table, clothes and I did it ALONE! ALONE! T.T no one is helping me. Dad is going to repaint the wall tomorrow. After that, me and Joanne gonna move back there. We planned to modified our room, the TV, DVD player and my PS2 are going into the room! Yay! Can't wait to move back to the room. My mum said today, maybe our room will be air-conditioned..well, I don't get my hopes to high but i'm hopeful. Wait, that doesn't even sounded right. Owh well..Gosh.. i'm tired, need sleep but can't. Didn't talk to Vans today.. Miss my Vans. One day feels like forever. Arghh!! Curse you house chores! Rawr!

Teehee! xD

xoxo,

Jaceyy

should I?

Should I be happy for this? Should I be angry? Should I be worrying bout you? Should I cared for you? All the answers are yes except for the happy part. Sometimes, I asked myself. Am I in love with you? Bloody hell, i'm in love with someone else not you. But I think I am in love with you. Argh! For eafin' sake, I can't be in love with you. I'm afraid this is going to happen if we were so close. Well, we are close and its happening! No..no..NO! This can't be happening. Dammit. I love V not T! What you told me today, really shocked me. Seriously. And you keep it to yourself and won't tell anybody. It makes me damn right worry bout you. What if you..owh nevermind. Okay, I think I have feelings for you but its not the same as I feel for V. I just cared for you, that's all. I'm so confused about my feelings now. Okay..okay.. My feelings are just for V and only V. I still haven't forget bout Eri tho. Argh! What are the odds that Eri still remember me? Sheesshh..

Cheers!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

mwahaha..?

Lol..owh greetings bloggers! How are we doing today? xD

Sorry for being such annoying. So, while waiting for Elyn to come home from school, me and Joanne were camwhoring. Okay, thats not the right term. Damn right, we're not whores! Grrr.. Mind that.. see the first pic? I was like, "what?!" and Joanne called herself a "dork"..Teehee! Don't believe me? Go check in her phone and see what she called herself on the pic.

Teehee!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

another day..another shit? lol..

Damn, i'm so F up! I feel like shit that's been shit on. I'm so friggin bored staying home alone. There's nothing to do but chores..chores..MORE CHORES!! Also surfing the net. But I still feel bored. Like there's something missing in me. I wished you were here with me, so that you can hugged me everyday. Why is Sabah and Australia are so far apart?? Hmm..how much is the plane ticket again, mum? Mum from distance: Don't even think about it! Aww..wait till I pursue my degree, and its in Avondale College, Sydney. There you go! But..i'm not sure if I'm going to that college in Penang tho. But i'm determined, as long I get to go to Aus. Teehee! Gah! Joanne ate my gummy bears. She took one handful of it from the bag. My precious colorful gummy bears. Eaten by Monster Joanne! Imma go buy more this saturday. Yeah saturday xD. But..not saturday..saturday is painting the wall of our room. Sunday it is. Teehee! Talked with Vans today..damn, vans was grounded for one week! Argh, imma go crazy. Today, we played the game, who loves who more. Lol, vans win and I'm the loser. Sheesh, imma win somehow. Well, eventually.

That's all for today's poo poo...
Cheers!

xoxo,

Jaceyy

April PWNED Day!!

Hey bloggers!
What a wakaka and frustrating day today. Wanna know why? Coz today is April Fool's day, also known as April PWNED Day!! The reason for the frustration? It's coz, my mum told me not to surf the internet today coz there was some kind of strong virus blah..blah..blah. Gah! It was sooooo BORING and without internet, I'm almost gone crazy today. Was messing with my laptop the whole day, playing games, Diner Dash and Turbo Pizza, and somehow I get to be on my journalism/author side. The boredomness today, gave me an idea of creating a story bout life of a person that I know. Can't tell you who is that person. Here's a little hint, you know that person. Well, kinda xD [i have A.D.D.]. Wth?! Me? A.D.D?? I don't have A.D.D. [yeah right] seriously I don't. Suffering A.D.D. is alot more worse than having a headache or stomachache. Trust me, you don't want to have A.D.D. Don't know what it means? It means, ATTENTION DEFICIT DISORDER. Encountering this disease may lead you to experience MOOD DISORDERS, BIPOLAR DISORDERS, ANXIETY DISORDERS, OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDERS which is also know as O.C.D. If you wanna know about all this disorders, google it. But, I think I have Bipolar Disorder. Ignore that. Seriously, ignore it. Sheesh, mind all that. Lets talk about PWNED DAY! So, my first victim for today is Joanne and my second victim is Elyn. Haha, I pwned her twice! Still, my day is still boring. Gonna find a way to redeem this day.. Hmm, ooh ooh maybe I should..umm, nevermind.

That's all xD

xoxo,

Jaceyy