Toilet Buddies Moments!! [My last night..nooo!]

As promised, here's the pics of us, The Toilet Buddies, on my last night staying at matriks. We took this pics using my webcam at 11.30pm which is the time for us to go to the toilet. But cbf :P its my last night. Hehe..I know you don't know what "cbf" means..but owh well..
The members...
- Me [Jaceyy] -
- Eqah [mummy] -
- Audrina [audy] -
- Rose -
- Nora -

Enjoy the pics...

xoxo

Farewell to KM-HELL..Greetings To MAKTAB GAYA

Heyy..i'm back peeps! Back in Penampang! I came home yesterday. I can't believe that I'm finally home! HOME! But, I missed my friends there. My roomies. I met so many friends from different places and they all are so nice and supportive. I don't know if I can find friends like that when I'm in maktab. Its coz, i'm the only one from smsm who got accepted there. And my lecturer said the orientation was one of the worse orientation of all maktabs. She said that because she studied there. Now, i'm scared. Gah! Gosh, I so miss my roomies.. Eqah whom I called mummy, Nora with her alarm that woke us up and Rose who likes to study. I also meet a friend in the toliet..LOL! Her name is Audrina, she's from Convent and we're on the same floor but different room. She lives just across my room and she's hella cute. LOL! She's my toilet buddy along with my roomies. We go to the toilet every night at 11.30pm. Seriously.. Later, I'll show you in my next post pictures of us on my last night staying at matriks. TOILET BUDDIES MOMENT!! Down there are the pics where I celebrate my birthday with them. It's early to celebrate coz my birthday is on the 10th July which is on friday. I wanted to celebrate with them coz I know I won't be with them on my birthday. So enjoy the pics...

Me and Shar...

ahhh...kiss me?

My smsm peeps..5 years we've been classmates in smsm..

Goofy faces :P

Finally! A decent smile from them.. =D

My roomies!

From left: Eqah, Rose and Nora.

Woohoo! All in!

There's Audrina xD

aww..with the cute faces :)

Cheese!!! Hot smiles!

My Cake!

Chocolate American Cake!

Yumm >.<

Home Sweet Home! LMAO! Only for 2 nights!

Hey..hey.. I just got back from Labuan and now I'm at home. Home sweet home. I missed home..hOME! haha..so funny when me and my friends in the ferry. We were like laughing without reasons. HAHAHA! LMAO! We sempat lagi took some pics this. Banyak lagi bah in my phone but malas mau upload. Mel said don't kasi yang buruk-buruk punya. Hehe..

Just thoughts...inner thoughts..

I woke up at dawn,

Woke up with a long yawn,

Staring at the ceiling,

Wishing that my life would end,

Why is this world so cruel?

Filled with darkness,

Hatred,

Sorrow,

Pain and suffering.

It's tearing me apart,

It's breaking me down,

I felt the emptiness in me,

Soulless,

It makes me weak,

The pain in my heart,

Will never be mend,

It will stay forever broken,

Till the day I die.

Wrapped In Your Arms *Joanne you must read this*

I'm here..to stay..nothing can seperate us..

And I know..I'm okay..

You cradle me gently...

Wrapped in your arms..

I'm home..

Hey..hey.. damn, its been a while since I last update my blog. Well, it's not my fault coz of too many assignments. Noticed the lyrics above? What do you think about it? I think it's beautiful. The song is called "Wrapped In Your Arms" by Fireflight. So much had happened during college time. It has been a month for me in matriculation. A bloody month and yet I feel, its like years there. Another 11 months to go. Oooh jolly..can't wait..HAH! As if! I've been dying to get out from the cage. Seriously its tearing me apart. Owh well..life must go on. I haven't done my account, economy, maths and business management tutorial tho. Hehe..i'm lazy. Unlike all my roommates..they were like study and study and study..wow! Stress bah juga tengok dorang study. I'm at my aunt's house now..using her neighbour's wi-fi. Oooohh..i'm evil..mwahahahahaha! LOL! Yesterday was a sad moment for me. Coz, yesterday was perjumpaan mentor-menti and our activity was telling our story about the past, present and future life. The lecturer asked us to draw pictures bout it. So, my story begin like this. In my past life, I told them that I was an ex-smsm student..happy being with my friends and spm. I also told them that I cut myself and they were all shocked including the lecturer. Move on to the present life. I drew a house and a sad face. Which mean I'm homesick. Then I started to cry when I started to talk about my mum. I cried and cried..then most of my friends started to cry. The lecturer comforted me and ask me to calm down. Okay, nuff bout the sad part. Moving on to the future. Still crying, I told them what I want to do in my future. I said to them I want to study and get a well-paid job and with all the money I have, I told them I want to migrate to Australia, bring along my parents with me and take care of them. The funny part is, when I told them that I don't want to get marry. Lol, the all giggled including the lecturer. Yay! No more tears!! Hehe.. sempat juga bah mau buat lawak. And something makes me realize yesterday. All my friends in the same tutoran as me were all supportive like when the lecturer advised me not to cut myself again, they were all like.."We're here for you!"..Gosh..you don't know how flattered I am to have such friends like that. Okay..on wednesday..someone pisses me off! Its the bloody lecturer in Science Informatics. Damn, he...gah! I don't want to talk about it! I punched the bloody wall for that and now my right hand is still hurting. Also, I voluntered myself in English class to do the MUET speaking. Not only me but also my three other friends. I know..its going to be hella fun. Hehe...so, thats all from me today...

Especially for Joanne, Jocelyn, Mum and Dad...

I missed you guys heaps and heaps! Yes, i'm homesick and I feel awful being away from home. I cried everytime I think of home. I missed using the wi-fi..I missed spunky..I missed everything. Sometimes, I feel weak witthout you all by my side. I feel like I can breakdown anytime. I almost quit that day. But something has stopped me from quitting. That something is you both, Mum and Dad. You've done so much for me and I know I must do something in return. I'm sorry for thinking about quitting. This one week, there are lots of tears coming out from my eyes..I'm sorry, I can't help but to cry and cry.. I Love you all so much..

From Labuan with Love

Greetings from Labuan

Heyy..heyy..heyy..A greeting from me from McDonald Labuan.
Gosh, every week which is on sunday I go to McD just to use the eafin wi-fi. It's coz the wi-fi at college macam tu tai..adakah Windows Live Messenger and FS pun mau block. I was like whatafack?! I mean..i have to log in into MSn for goodness sake. My social life is ruin.. NOOOOO!!! I missed Vanessa so so much. I missed Tori so much. I missed all of them...
I called Vanessa last night. You doon't how happy I am to hear her voice. I'm glad she's okay. When I was about to go, she cried because she don't want to go and wants to talk to me longer. Damn you time..hehe.. But my heart hurts knowing that she's crying. I mean, yeah I did cry last night while talking to her, its coz she wrote a poem for and she read it to me last night. The poem was beautiful, each word in each sentence and that made my eyes teary. The worst part is..I cried and she heard me crying. Gosh, i'm so emotional.. Damn hormones..stop invading my body! LOL! I'm here sitting with my friend using the wi-fi and i'm eating Sausage McMuffin! Yumm >.<>
Lol, i'm going mental if I stay longer at the college. But I seriously can't quit! I'm not a failure. Although I seriously truly despise hate the course, I can't quit. I promise myself and to mum that I will not quit although it will truly crush me.. *slowly looks down and cries softly*

The Life Of A Teenager in College

The Life Of A Teenage In College...

What is it feel like to be in college? Fun? Stressful? Freedom? Independent? Hard? Happy? Well, there are fun times..hard times..we learned to be independent. Make our own bed and breakfast. Wash our own clothes. When we're feeling down, our parents are not there to comfort you. Only their voices through the phone. When we cried, only our friends can be our comfort zone.It's so sad to think when you're here and you're far apart from your family. There's no one to make breakfast for you, you can't feel your comfortable bed, there's no one you can hug tightly. Its all through the phone. You can only hear their voices from your phone but you can't feel their hands. It makes you want to see them badly. Like me, I want to go home badly. And now I'm home but its just for a while. In 2 days, i'll be gone and back to the place where I'm supposed to be. Not to have fun but study. Study to gain knowlegde and bring home a successful person in the future. But why I get the feeling that I don't want to go back to the place? To tell you the truth, I'm weak. I can't find the strength in me. I don't want to quit. Quitting is for failures! And i'm not going to be one of them. I will stay and study there. Although its making me stressful..although the pain is eating me up..although its breaking me down..I promise myself that I will NOT quit!! I repeat, I will NOT QUIT!!

Wanna know a thing or two perhaps the whole thing about my life at Matriculation College in Labuan? Here's the 411..Ready? Let's begin...

Morning
- Woke up at 5.50 am then straight to shower
- Make own breakfast [Milo and Bread sometimes Biscuits]
- Dressed up [about 10 mins on hair]
- Doing Revision for at least 30 mins [usually Business Management and Economy]
- 7.30pm..went downstairs..wait for friends then straight to class.

Morning to Afternoon
- Tutorial and Kuliah
- Break for I hour [Lunch at Hom Cafe]
- Tutorial and Kuliah again

Evening
- 4pm..class ended..
- Went to the cafe for a while then to my room
- Shower
- Updating my "State of Union" in my laptop
- Sleep [sometimes]
- 6.30pm..dinner at cafe with friends

Night
- Study and do my tutorial
- Study the Muet [Eaffin HARD!!!]
- Play game for a while in my laptop before bed
- 11.30pm/12am went to bed
- Await for a new day to begin [New Day means New and More Torture]

For me.. I hate Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. I seriously do! Ugh..too many homeworks that day. But I mostly hate Wednesday. Wanna know why? Coz I'm not fond of the teacher teaching us Sains Informatics! He's so sarcastic..and I'm hurted sometimes by his word..
Argh! Forget it! * Hatred in me*

Home!!! But only for 4 days..aww..dang it!!!

Home! Home! Home! Home! Home! At last HOME!!!!!!!!!!

I'm at home! I can't believe it! I'm at home! I missed home so much! I missed everyone heaps!! Today was funny tho. Me, Michelle, Lona and Effie rode the speed boat to Menumbok. Dammit! My ass hurts coz of the bumpy ride. We were all very nervous. Apa gia tidak, semua pun bawa beg besar! O.O Hehe..but owh well, I made it still in one piece. I can't believe that I'm in Penampang. Seems like it was just monday yesterday. Whoa..time passed by so fast. I'm getting old day by day. Omigosh! NO! Ain't gonna happen! *swearing and cursing* #@*&%!!!! Whoopss...hehe..my bad. Mind my rudeness. Well, its my nature to swear and curse. Hehe..can't help it. LOL! I'll be going back to hell on monday tho. Yay, can't wait! Duh! Hell no! Kalau bleh ni, tidak mau balik. Hehe.. Gosh, there's so many assingment to do and some lecturers wants them next week. Talking about not being understanding. Sheesshh..dammit, give us time would ya?! I'm going to sleep for the whole day tomorrow. I'm tired. Seriously! Everyday slept at 12 am. Siapa tahan?! Penat bah.. T.T

*cries*

Hey..hey..hey..

Greetings to the people in blogging industry. I'm out from the cage of hell. LMAO! I'm at my aunt's house now. There's a wi-fi connection here. Lol, I don't know who's wi-fi. Hehe.. So..the first week of class in college..was a pain in the ass!! It's the first week for goodness sake and the lecturers gave us tones of homework!! Gah! Dammit, I can't cope with all of that. Maths..Account..Business Management..Economy..Kemahiran Dinamika..English..ugh.. Haha..i've been chosen to join the ICT 4 Me club but I turned them down. The lecturer said he wants to changed me into a college's journalist. Like what?! Moi? LOL! The first meeting was already a pain for me. He said to me..if I want to become a journalist, I must have the skill th handle the SLR. Haha...funny..so we were given SLR each..not given just borrowing..lol.. Mine was D60. The lecturer taught me on how to take pictures beautifully. One sentence I remembered he said, "Kalau mau ambil gambar, make sure background dia clean." I was like..oookkkaaayyyy.. Haha but ada juga lah gambar sa kena puji. So, I've heard many stories bout the college. Ugh..scary! O.O like the one I heard what they saw in the girl's toilet in Block A and D. Cilaka! Sa takut sdah. Buduh! Like last night me and my two roomates went to toilet together coz semua pun penakut! Hehe..funny..so cool..we bond..get to know each other..watching movies on my laptop. Hehe..gah..can't wait to go home to Sabah. Miss my dog very much. LMAO!

From Matriculation with Pain and Love

Hello..hello..hello...
At last..after 5 days of pure torture..the hellish orientation has ended!! Woop woop!!!Gosh..the faci was sooooooooo MEANNNNNN!! Everyday kena DENDA!! TEDA KERJA LAIN KA DORANG??!!! SHEESSHHH...Thank God that you all are gone..hehe..so next week, our class will begin..say hello to torture number two. Before that, let me tell you what happened during the past 5 days.... First day of orientation..at night..we were called to go to the hall.. well, I thought the hall was big enough for all of us. But guess what? It wasn't!!! grrrr......!!

The faci told us to compressed! Gah! It was pact! No room to breath...the lectures says that this year is a record coz many students fainted..wow! Everyday we got punished. The worst day ever is on Wednesday coz we were forced to do "Ketuk Ketampi" for 70 times!!! My legs are in pain!! Jalan pun tidak tentu. Hantu btul!! And and and...there's no water yesterday..wednesday..and tuesday! Fuyoohhhh!! I was smelly! LOL! Owh well...can't write to long.. At McD now..hehe..

p/s: From Labuan Matriculation College with Love, Sadness and Pain...

Missed you all heaps!!

xoxo